“I don’t want to fall apart.”
This was the words of a woman who was so close to her breaking point, and it was hard not to hug and heal her. The best thing I could give her was strength and power to make it on her own, with new energy and a new view on life.
I often listen to different people and their views on falling apart. They all have their reasons for not falling apart.
Some don’t want to be like they have seen their family be.
Some don’t want to be anything but perfect.
Some have no one to take over if they fall apart.
Some have an entirely different reason.
In the end, there is no choice in falling apart if you are where you cannot hold yourself together anymore. It is just a matter of turning it into a learning process, and moment in time where you are open to change.
Falling apart and letting go of everything is an opportunity to change everything and build yourself up again. It is an opportunity to rebuild yourself in the mind and spirit you wanted all along.
When we fall, we count on others to catch us. Some don’t have anyone to catch them, but they have themselves, and they are strong enough.
One of the things I tell people all the time is you get only what you can carry. Sometimes it can surely feel like Spirit, and you might not agree on how much you can carry.
Hopelessness is not always bad
I know it can feel hopeless; I have been there at the edge of life. In the end, you have a chance to change everything and start the life you always wanted, but you need to trust that you are strong enough.
Too many times in my life, I stood at the edge, not knowing if I was strong enough to turn my back on everything and start all over. I decided that I was stronger than everybody thought. I wanted to prove to all the people who told me I was a failure that I was none of the sorts. I soon realized that strength is something we must find for ourselves and not others. We have to know that we can only truly win in life if we do things from our soul and not because we want to prove ourselves to others.
When we are different and not like others are used to, they will riot against our ways. I have seen this in my own life, but also in the life of others. They are being bullied and abused because they are not like others and how others would like everything to be.
Being tired, just tired to the bone might also bring people to the edge of life. Having children is hard work, and you might think you know what you are in for, but you can`t know until you are in it.
There are so many reasons why people might be close to the edge of life. I am telling you that you are strong enough. You can beat this, even when you feel like you have lost it all. Spirit is rooting for you to learn and succeed.
Its sometimes a red flag for me, when I´m told its a new lesson, when life keeps on running me over 😉 I´m on my breaking point – my illness is taking over, and I really can’t se the lesson here. I just now, that it feels like I´m falling from a mountain top.
I know that I´m getting up again – but I can’t keep climing <3
I want peace – I want love – I want stability <3
Thank you. I understand completely.
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